Bleubelle~

You realize something important, something that you know would make you really happy.

And then you try to work for it, even though you’re not sure of how to go about it, or how to act, or what exactly to say.

And, all the while, you ready yourself, and try to grow up a little so that, if it happens, you feel like you can jump in without being scared.

And it feels like it just might happen.

And then it doesn’t happen.

And, in fact, the opposite of what you want happens.

And you think, “If only I was more direct, or said or did something sooner.”

That’s how I’m feeling right now.

And, after all that, it’s still my secret.